"A Year of New Beginnings"--little did I know, when I chose this as my "theme" for 2016, just how prophetic that title would turn out to be and that's not just true for me, but for both my sisters, as we all embark on journeys that will take us to all to "new beginnings." It all started with my journey to become Ms. Wheelchair Kansas for 2016, as I was crowned on March 13th in Topeka. Two weeks later, my youngest sister and brother-in-law, along with their two kids, headed for Chicago so that he could start a new job. In addition, my oldest sister will be getting remarried to a wonderful guy on Mother's Day (May 8). So, as it seems, the Lord has big plans in mind for all of us this year far above anything we could ask for or imagine and I can't wait to see what else He has in store in the coming months as I take you along with me for "the ride of a lifetime!"
I will admit that I did not feel this confident in the beginning and I do still waver at times even now. In fact, for years I was terrified to even compete for the title of Ms. Wheelchair Kansas because of the high level of responsibilities that I would have if I was chosen as the new titleholder. I kept thinking that there was no way I could handle ALL those responsibilities on my own and not to mention the fact that I don't particularly enjoy speaking in public nor do I have necessary finances to support myself or the ideal transportation to make it easier to travel. The State Coordinator, Carrie Greenwood, can testify to exactly how hard it was to convince me that I should come on as a contestant ;). So, what's different about this year? I decided to surrender all my plans to my Lord Jesus and let Him work them out as only He can because a man's heart may plan his way, but it's the Lord who directs his steps! (Prov. 16:9).
The Lord also reminded me that I don't have to fear because He will be with me and He will strengthen me, help me, and uphold me with His righteous right hand (Isa. 41:10) and He says, in 2 Corinthians 12:9, "My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore, I will say with the Apostle Paul, in verse 10, that I will all the more gladly boast of my weaknesses so that the power of Christ might be seen in me; for when I am weak, He is strong!
What I hope to accomplish throughout my reign as my reign as Ms. Wheelchair Kansas is to encourage all of you to not be afraid to show your weaknesses and to admit you need help because we are not meant to go through this life alone and to carry all of our burdens on our own shoulders.
It is OK to be weak and to depend on others for help because we all need guidance at some point! Our weaknesses can become our greatest assets if we are willing to embrace them!
This is, undoubtedly, the greatest lesson I have learned as a person living with a disability, as it has forced me to realize just how much I cannot do on my own, in turn, it causes me to look to the ultimate Source of my strength. "I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength!" (Philip. 4:13).
Of course, I still have many obstacles to overcome; however, I am confident that nothing is too hard for the Lord and that faith as small as a mustard seed can and will move mountains! Furthermore, I am blessed to now be a part of an amazing sisterhood that understands what it is like to live with a disability and who are willing to do whatever they can to assist me in this process, which I am so grateful for!!
In my next post, I will detail the adventure culminating in the infamous crowning and, yes, there WILL be photos ;-).